Happy New Years?

Honestly, I never understood what was the big deal for Celebrating the coming of the new year... For me, even when I was growing up, I could never grasp the whole concept. Supposedly everything is supposed to start a new, but I still have the same everything as before. It almost sounds like another excuse to run away from your problems or past. I personally like to face them and learn. I see myself as the Federation and BORG put together from Star Trek, in a metaphorical type of aspect. I'm always on a journey to better improve my self, but for the greater good, on a common ground that everyone can benefit from. But it's still hard to achieve these goals whole heartily, when there is so many obstacles trying to stop you along the way. But that's why I will always face adversity head on... For my Family... For my Late son Logan and for my God, in a way I may prove myself, so I can serve him for all eternity. If celebrating the coming of the new year, meant celebrating my triumphs, in overcoming all the trying times. Then maybe I should be throwing a HUGE party, complete with dancers and security at the door. Because the past "YEARS" have been very tough and I am still here giving it all I got. Though it may seem as if my efforts are in vane, I look past all that. My strength, determination and will-power, have definitely shown everyone I come in contact with, that I am a force to be reckoned with, especially when goals need to be meet. I am very fortunate that I get to share the rest of my life with a woman that has surpassed my expectations in every way possible, and to have to be blessed with children that have taught me what true "Unconditional Love" really means. For this, I have a true reason to celebrate. I wish everyone a Happy New Years and I hope 2010 will truly be the year, everyone gets there just deserves. Thanks to everyone that has touched my life in a special way. I will never forget all of you. So lets all look forward for what is in store for us and may it be a good one! HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY or MANIGONG BAGONG TAON!!!!

Droid

So this is my first entry from Droid phone! Jesus I love this phone! It's like a mini computer in my hands! So far it can a vast amount stuff, except when some of the pages require Adobe Flash. But good news, Adobe announces a Droid plug-in some time in 2010. So I am really anticipating the release. That plug-in will open up a whole new world for all Droid users. Also I recently uploaded a Youtube vid about the whole experience.

Videography

I really enjoy doing videos now. I'm kinda torn between Photography and Videography because I don't have the time to do both and still keep up with my workouts... GEEZ! What am I to do? WAIT A SEC HERE! I got it! It's been sitting right in front of my face this whole time! Use the 5D MARK II to make a REALLY BAD ASS VIDEO!!! And while I am at it, take pics while recording!! WOO HOO!!! Now the only question is, what should I record? Well anyways, i will figure it out I guess... But here are the latest vids I up loaded!

YOU TUBE!!!

I'm on YouTube now Chick on the link >>> lfglass <<< to see my channel!!! It's me vlogging about my everyday life and what crazy things happen to me along the way! LOL Not to mention one of my main Stars Madi the Fatty Patty with her crazy personality and Stephanie who is a sweet and innocent, yet crazy and fun loving girl you can't help but love!! Come check us out, leave some Video responses or comments and make sure to Subscribe!! Here are some Vids that have posted in the last week or two!

Thoughts...

So here I am in another one of my moods. Where I feel like I have done all that is there to be done, but then again I still have done nothing at all... In other words, feeling that you have done it already, but in actuality didn't... Is this part of a mid-life Crisis? Am I realizing again, that there is not that much time left and I need to hurry up and get the things that I wanted to do in life, completed? Like Start and finish College, travel the world and finally see Europe, get inspired again, be spontaneously wild again or just be myself again for once... Just to name a few. I turned to "working out" the past couple of months, because I can see and feel the results. It's the only thing I feel I can't be a total failure at. I always have thoughts of wonder or what if, floating around my head... Especially about my late Son Logan. I catch myself wondering why I can't ever see the beauty in anything simple anymore, it's like my artistic side is totally gone. I used to be so creative and so mentally/emotionally in-tuned with myself. Now it's like I am just some big drone running on auto pilot, watching the seconds tic away. Wondering if I will ever come out of my functional coma... I have lost the touch of making friends easily, starting conversations and keep them going... I think about how old I am alot, especially when I look back at the past and remember all the crazy things I did. Boy was I young. Is this how the rest of my life will turn out? Will it be an everyday thing of dreading on going to work and wondering if today will be the day I lose it? Will my sex life ever be the same, like it used to be when I was single? Why does it always seem to be a similar story for every guy that goes through a Midlife Crisis? Even the successful ones too? Is there no end to the monotony of feeling like I have not done enough? When will the day come when I can say, I am successful... It's like an internal battle with myself and deciding what or who I am. My creative mind is cold and empty... An empty mind is like committing suicide... Mine is a ice ridden wasteland, eternally tortured with lonely emptiness... Thoughts...

EVONY

I am obsessed with the online game EVONY!!! <---- Click here=== I have started playing it like 3 or 4 days ago and I have been consistent about checking it almost everyday. It's almost like the game AGE Of Empires, but it takes a super long time to get everything upgraded. But I think that was a good idea to do, because it keeps players interested and to keep them yearning to succeed to the next level! I have not yet started building my ARMY, because I am working on getting everything advanced to the MAX! Check it out everyone!

TWITTER

God I love using TWITTER!! I get everything up to date on my Blog and Face-Book!! I should have signed up for TWITTER and long time ago!! Usually I really don't feel like blogging a huge paragraph, when I don't have anything that is that important to Blog about. When on Twitter, I can just write something really simple and small to keep everything up to date!